深夜月当花

我的新博客地址~

但是请大家也别把这个删除了哦

两个我都用~

但是既然支持国产,那么就用一点新的那个吧~~~

见了很久没见的人,很难得地在很冷的地方坐了很久一直地聊天.天花乱坠什么都聊,应该很开心,但却有种莫名其妙的心酸.隐约察觉到的伤痕,深深藏在心里,表面上的笑容,却更让人深深意识到你的伤痕.你的玩笑越是放肆,却让人更觉得心酸,真的.很心疼的.为什么一件事过了这么久了还是这样呢,改变的太大,让我更加害怕.我最最信赖的C啊,还记得以前的笑容吗?那才是真正的笑容啊.我不喜欢现在的玩笑,一点也不.一件事过了这么久,现在早已不像刚知道这事时那样卖怨他人了,事后的打抱不平又有什么用呢,只希望时光能在你身上留下欢乐的印记,不要强装,只要回到原来的那个你.一定会持续一生的友情,一定会让我信赖的你.

SACT

很偶然地在网上看到这个缩写，想了良久究竟是什么，最后决定应该是某个大型国际组织的名称缩写，该组织规模应该是能与ＷＴＯ匹敌的那种．结果后来才发现居然是＂ＳＥＸ　ＡＮＤ　ＴＨＥ　ＣＩＴＹ＂．．．．．．这年头的缩写啊．．．．．．大大的有欺骗性！

不过对于这电视剧还是要赞一句～我喜欢～

 

累

刚在别人的博客的上找到了共鸣，没错就一个累字！回家真是啥都累！连躺床上看电影吃东西都累．每天就想一直坐在阳台上晒太阳无聊地看楼下的人们走来走去．想想就心驰神往．

 

我是个勤劳的好孩子

家里的所有家务，能做的我都做，不能做的也尽力做．同时绝对地保证质量．

恩恩我真是个勤劳善良勇敢的社会主义新青年．

 

股票

由于爸爸的缘故现在开始迷上股票，打开电脑第一件事就是看今天的行情以及我家的股值．终于有个完全地体现我金牛座特色的时刻了～

 

还有很多很多，日子久了积下来的都没有写，却一直在心里沉淀．然而想写的时候，却发现语言的匮乏．很多人，很多事，很多心情．希望上天保佑所有我爱的人．

07年!金牛座的金刚年!

虽然纯属我胡编乱造,但是!绝对是会金刚到底的~!

金牛座的广大兄弟姐妹们!我们的金刚年来啦~!!!

1 英语别拉下,保持保持.

2 新的学习别懈怠,每天要坚持,保持住该有的劲头.

3 做好自己能做的事.

4 努力做好每件自己应该做好的事.

5 凡事先找自己的错误,不要怪别人.

 

以上,是所有寒假的希望.

犹豫了很久,谋划了很久,

终于还是这么做了呢......

之前的勇气似乎全都在最后一刻消散了,

但是还是这么做了,不管后果.

我讨厌你,所以要你付出代价.

 

可是还是矛盾,

所以最后做了一点小小补救,

即使我知道那应该只会使我做的一切坏事更加明显使那恶心的家伙的结局更加恶心而已.

 

突然觉得自己真蠢,有什么可矛盾的呢?

恶心的人就该为自己的恶心付出代价.

我要让你知道,

老娘我绝对不是病猫,我是不折不扣的食肉动物.

几乎每天晚上都做很多很多梦,对我来说绝对的罕见......更加罕见的是每天的梦几乎都是关于同一件事,每次醒来都充满遗憾,拼命地反省自己.为什么呢?为什么直到最近才一直一直地暗暗想起?

 

i don't kown what is going on these days,i should be happy cause the days i am back is nearer. but no, what's the matter with me ??????  hoping to have a new surrounding .

 

我是个坏脾气的孩子,要改正.希望大家不要因为我做的坏事生气.至少对于其中的大多数,我绝不是有意的.

总算过了考试拥挤期,每一门都是恶心的两天.

哈哈总算是过啦~!

管他考的怎么样先醉生梦死个两天再说~~!!

最近非常之焦躁,恶心的考试准备期!!!!

有时候看谁都不顺眼......

啊!!!我太恶心了!!

突然非常想念亲爱的股,

好象每次我们在一起的时候我就会显得很平和.

股啊股啊你快回来呀.....

 

现在就期待快点回家,

考试啊什么的都给我滚边去!!!!

哼!

i hate those people most,

the one who only wants to gain but not to pay,

the one who never considers the others ,

the one who always thinks herself is the most beautiful no matter how terrible looking she actually is,

the one who never knows where her true levev is.

the one who thinks her is so clever.

 

and unlucky for me ,

there is some one in my life has all these.

 

that stupid aferican ass face black shit hen!

 

and worse is ,

this hen even wants to compair itself with me ????!!!!

 

hey you !stupid little piece of shit!

why don't you look in the mirror fist and kick yourself to the galaxy?????

you belong to the shit family.

 

 

only when someone is 20 he can realise that his father is also a person.

 

that is so true.

and,

since i am no longer a little child,

please do not hide your thoughts back.

what ever your are thinking,

tell me.

i'll do everything i can to make you satisfied.

 

and,

i now love you more cause i really understand that truth.

突然发现我现在就像超人一样,不出三个小时可以写完一篇论文,

不到两小时可以写完一篇公文报告,

不到两个小时可以做完一个PPT,

甚至做到最后连自己都不知道做的是啥......

大学还真是个磨练人的地方,

明天下午要做的演讲,我们组却是直到今天早上都不知道主题是什么.

COOL~~~!!

其实这样也满好的,效率高就是我们的特征!

至少不会浪费时间,会省多点时间出来看电视~

 

今天是圣诞节,对我来说却是缘分的节日.

早上,临时决定的早点走,

中午,临时决定的去买饭盒,

晚上,临时决定的出去.

就这样每次都很巧妙地遇到一直想见到的人们,

同在一个学校里,碰见的机遇是那么小,却又那么大.

上天神奇的安排.

 

亲爱的佳啊,你是在挪威还是在英国?

我想你呀......

很早之前就想来写,可是自己的电脑却一直出现问题,所以最后用别人的电脑在我自己的空间上留言,感觉怪异......

 

雅思很早就知道了分,其实分数并不差,至少满平均的,可是仍旧非常之不甘心,想想自己付出的一切,与回报的比起来真是完全不能相符合......不过也许的确是我没怎么经历过不能让自己满意的东西,所以那时候才会如此这般郁闷.不过现在早已经忘却那些了,天才小曹蕾永远金刚不倒~!

 

最近真的是非常非常多作业,论文小组报告,一个接一个,还有就在不远处的期末考试,可怜的我的大脑,一个学期来没有看过任何与英语没关系的东西,现在怎么办.......更可怕的是,就在这种紧要关口,我每天最想做的事情仍然是看电影还有玩,读书?这词语几乎不存在于我的脑子里.......

 

每天每天想回家,回家回家我要回家!

 

突然之间意识到其实任何人活着都不简单,每个人都有自己辛苦的日子与辛酸的回忆,上帝啊你究竟是怎么安排每个人的生活呢......

 

寒假依旧没啥安排,想要被安排进我寒假的人们请自己来报名.

 

准备考试,准备回家,开始省钱~!

厌恶

最近一直强烈鄙视某人,却不得不每天仍然跟其混在一起至少半个小时,人生还真是种煎熬.

最近总是有好多人造成很吵的气氛,虽然绝对不讨厌那些人,但是我讨厌那种气氛.

最近总是要跟某超级恶心的人说话,每说一句我就想把自己的舌头拔了,绝对真实.

 

思念

最近一直很盼望见到某人,却一直总没有机会,阴差阳错.

最近一直很希望跟某人说话,可是不知道是我的时间不对还是某人的时间不对,上Q时间总是有时差.

最近一直很想跟某人聊清晰的电话,可是我国的电信设备实在不怎么地,永远都不能把一句话完整地听清楚.

最近一直很想家,非常非常的想.

 

感谢

最近听了很多别人对我说的真心实意的好话---假的早就自动过滤掉了,非常非常之感谢加感动.

最近听有人骂了我,很难得听到,仍然很感谢,谢谢你从来不假装,谢谢你总是告诉我真话.

 

开心与空虚

最近生活很轻松,看了很多电视还有电影,可是却开始觉得空虚,似乎没有了目标.

不应该的,目标还在,努力还要,生活还要继续.

还有紧张,每次想到成绩就超级紧张,上帝上帝上帝啊.

 

刚才用易经算了一卦-----"事情没有考虑周全,进退都很难"

不知道准不准,可是又好象很有道理

世界就是这么神奇

本来想问自己的心愿能不能顺利

可是突然间又转念问了考试

可这样的解释,究竟比较适合哪个答案?

也许很多事我的确没有考虑清楚

很多很多

 

世界就是这么神奇

 

也许结果是不准的,谁知道股才学这么两天到底有没有学到家

不过亲爱的股啊

真希望你的黄金**能马上到来呢

 

 

 

本周终于结束了痛苦的雅思考试，不论结果如何,总之是考完了,终于可以松一口气了~

 

考试之前收到好多来自四面八方的鼓励短信,虽然那些对于我来说其实是些不小的压力,可是还是很高兴,很感激,毕竟有这么多人关心着我一场实际上微不足道的小考试,每次听到手机铃声响起就会更多一份喜悦.谢谢你上帝,谢谢你让我拥有这么多可爱的朋友们~

 

爸爸妈妈，柯,迎,佳,米,薇,朱,么,于,晶,柳,东,俊,曦,丹,佼,欢,还有好多好多人,谢谢你们的鼓励与祝福,对于所有的电话\短信\留言\对话,一声谢谢足以代替千言万语.还有特别鸣谢多多,谢谢你多坐的那么多站,还有晚了那么多才吃到的饭.

 

还有亲爱的WQ啊,你的留言真让我开心~是啊我们向来都是快乐的孩子,再阴霾的日子对我们来说也只不过是一小片乌云而已,而阳光总是会来的~亲爱的我真爱你~

 

接下来一样不轻松,周三演讲,17考口语,好多拉下的课要学习,天才小曹要加油啊~~~

 

突然想汗一句,瞧我受雅思毒害的,现在写作都习惯性地顶格间段空一行.......

一片混乱    太多的任务没有完成   太多的计划被荒废    心太乱   不知道怎么静下来

本来以为能使人安心的电话    却成了过苦的药丸    心又开始被悬着

有点像冬天的午后    阳光依然温暖而又灿烂     想起那些十多年的回忆

每一点一滴   每个角落   每次微笑与哭泣   还有每个深藏在心里的秘密

担心  恐惧  无奈  哀求   但是眼泪只能吃进肚子里   无论有多难消化

我想你   很想很想却又得不到

改变的太多  人生有了方向但生活却偏离了轨道

十多年都没考虑过了的问题统统被放到现在来想    却只有自己

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期待我的冬天   静静地趴在阳台上看行人   阳光很舒服  

想回家

 

可是我还要考试

可是我还要复习

可是我还有一堆的作文阅读听力口语没有做

可是我还有好多不想做却一定要做的事

可是我还有压力

..................

可是我没有资格去找你

可是我没有勇气去找你

可是我没有借口去看你

..................

因为我什么都还没有做到

因为暑假里那个看似轻描淡写的"我来"

因为不要你担心

因为我们的诺言

 

 

现在我唯一确定的是

我会努力的

 

 

 

      with only one week left, my ielts class will end next weekend.

      they are all great, actually,these classess bring me not only something about the texts, but also some other memories.

      the bus, the big mac, the yummy cakes, the road back to our island, the little story on the bus stop, the mornings, the noons ,the nights, the shopping malls, the cute baby, the  coincidents,the fantastic experience, the......  and, the people i get to know at there , also some teachers, all make me enjoy this trip of study. 

      it's great, really.

      then after less than 1.5months ,my text will come. just do my best, and always being confident, with the precondition of working hard~~!!

    

     just back from a long walking with my darling zhuzhu , since the newspaper said that the best way for my constellation to deal with some annoying thing was to have a walk and get more fresh air.

    we talked a lot about all these days, some troublesome persons we all want to kill as soon as possible if we can , some disgusting guy who did something really terrible, some feelings of our recent lives, and blablablabla~~~ all our happiness and sadness can be communicated with each other, so to my darling sister:i know all these days we had suffered a lot, but both of us are brave girls so nothing can be lasting barriers ,course all the growing up things are based on pain .

    

     and about you, some disgusting guy, what you had done was not only bad for me ,but also for the girl,although i don't know her at all, i still feel sorry of her for meeting you in her life. and the only word i want to tell you is that you are such a idiot and i dislike you at all, and ,the best place for you is the hall.

     oh, it's much more better after telling all this out~

 

     and ,my darling zhuzhu, i love you ~~~

      just heard about something now......and feel a little sorry ...... but my dearest sister, don't be sad or dissapoint, you know that you can get your things back in the other means, right? be happy again ,and struggling for your new goal~~~!!!

      and one more sentence here, i love you ~~~~

 

      some other problems are around me all these days.

      first, ielts. i know my text is coming in just 7weeks, i know i have to get a good score or i'll lose the chance, but i also know i dislike learning english at all while it comes as a mission, watching some english shows is much more better than learning the vocabulary by heart...... however, what i'll take is a exam ,but not some chatting thing with a examiner, though there is also a aral text in ielts. so ,go on exciseing, happy is impossible existed in any process of study, anynoe said anything about "happy learning" are either cheat or idiot.

     and about the other problem, all i want to tell is: %$#&(^*)*^$#%&*()__)&^(^&$&$^%^((_)^*&!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok ,that's enough~ and i don't want to say any other words on this issue. just hope it can be better, and no more

 annoying issues.

 

     and ,really homesick these days......

  

     and, thank you suisui, your message is really silly, but did inspire me. thx.

    

     and, i miss you my dear Clare......  

 

     and , hope days to be eassy.

    

       it's 19:19 of 10.6 now, and almost the last 5 hrs of this year's mid autumn festival.

       the moon today is a integrated round and a little red, just seems like some color of blood is mixed into the dark yellow....... according to some novels, here should now come to the part of some ineffable dread, since it can be more mysterious and make the writter more moonstruck~ but for me ,the answer is absulutly NO ~ i am happy now~

       hahahahahaha now something great is waiting for me ~~~enjoy my good time !!! hahahahahah

    such a boring moment!!!

    all things make me berserk!!!

    am i too narrowness???

    no !!!!

    i'm completely OK!!!

    and can't be more OK!!!!

   

    hey you! the silly and fool girl,

    just go to the hell!

    then my world can be quiet again~~~~

  

    a few better now,

    for having poured the above out~

    ok, really better now,

    go on my sweet relax,

    and ignore the blue~~~~

   

   ps:  hope  i can get my package tomorrow

 

    The first two days of my 7-days vacation were disengaged, yummy snackes, funny shows,slept at odd intervals, and blablablabla~~~~~ i locked the door for not been disturbed, despite still lots of knockes, it made me feel the world had only i myself existed~  hahahahahaha i love it! so fantastic~~!!

    It's said that people are social animals which means they should live together and dislike to be alone, however, being alone for a few days is realy a great taste for me. i had thought about my imaginary life of future, there should be a villa along the sea with two sides of the walls made all by glass, which was used as a living room so that i could see the sea from it any time i wangted; and  there should also be a great garden with two pools! one for my families and the other for the guests~they should be in two different shapes ,one as a golden fish while the other one as a anomalous shape just looked like a openair hotspring~ hahahahaha it made me really happy while imaging all these things~~~ 

    The only thing made me sorry in these two days was that i haven't even had a glace at my english......just 60days left for my ielts and the only english i got to was this passage in my space......to be frank,it's such a difficult work to learn all the  unacquainted words by heart.so if anyone have any great techniques of it,pelase tell me at no time~~~please~~~

    And one more goos mews! i can finally open my dearest friend's space today!! god i love you ~~!!and my dear Clare, the  judgement you made of me is so melting~~~~ have surpassed all the sentiment of families and friends.